June 15, 2004

Amos the Prophet

An alarming trend is taking place in my morning prayers.

In the past six months I’ve had to move 8 names from our list of the LIVING - "For mercy, life, health, peace, salvation, visitation, forgiveness and remission of sins…" down below to the list of the DEPARTED - "For eternal memory and blessed repose…". Alarming in that I merely noticed it today, and also in that just last evening Navah says to me before I read her bedtime story…”Dad, am I going to die?”

This is one of those situations where you recall yourself saying …”If my kid ever says blank ?”, I’m going to tell them blank!” My response shocked me at first, then I realized that I had an eerie sense of peace about telling her the truth. No candy-coated message about how she’ll never have to worry about death or that when the time comes, Angels will seize her and carry her off into the clouds never feeling the pangs of mortality. Actually…maybe that is the way things will go down when her time comes.

But the peace I had has to do with a very simple truth…I believe in God.

I believe that what He says about himself to be true. That what He says He’ll do, He’ll do. If that - as a believer in Him - I live a life prescribed in the precepts He’s revealed and walk in the way in which He walked, I get eternal life. That’s the payoff. And the payoff far outweighs all the bogus promises of this world and can’t be compared to the life to come.

So when my three-year old asks me if she’ll die someday, I tell her “Yes Navah, you will. And as a child of God you inherit His Kingdom once you’ve passed on from this life to the next. This is our hope. This is our perspective in life. To see all things, including ourselves, as a creation of the Creator and our ultimate reconciliation with Him to be with Him, for eternity, where He intended us to be since the beginning."

At first I was fretful about her question, then I realized the answer that God provides was more for me. To realize the truth of my existence with the death of my loved ones and to understand that those slipping off of the list of the land of the living have received their promise in the Kingdom to come. Lord, have mercy.

14 Comments:

Blogger Petros said...

It's sorta strange John, here I am listening to Other Voices by The Cure this morning, reading your blog about death. I didn't sleep night before last. Yesterday was miserable and surreal, but now I am up for the first time in longer than I can remember, at 8:30 am. AND, I've had a full night's rest. Glory to God! Seriously. Yet as I was reading about death, listening to that song - and currently the song on the same album called Funeral Party is playing - I was and am experiencing a great sense of love for God and for others, especially right now for my friend John. May the Lord bless you, keep you, cause his light and love to shine upon you, and give you rest in the knowledge that He is working through you to bring His light and love to your family and friends. Navah and I and the rest of us here in the land of the living thank God for you.

8:49 AM

 
Blogger John said...

Wow. PJ gets a full nights rest AND is up at 8:30 in the morning! Sounds too normal...How are your hands?

I cherish to hear your words - “I was and am experiencing a great sense of love for God and for others”. I will continually remind you of them and hold you accountable to not forget this time and feeling. Even amidst your current trials God reveals himself to console you. Glory to God.

I thank God for you too, Peter.

9:51 AM

 
Blogger Bill said...

St. Barnabas must be quite a community. I hope I can meet some of you someday.

12:19 PM

 
Blogger John said...

Thanks for making notice Bill. If you’re ever in Southern California, please look us up.

1:17 PM

 
Blogger Petros said...

I'm a little slow on the uptake John, my hands are currently fuscia with a taupe hue to them. (sp?) Ha.

2:26 PM

 
Blogger E Rica said...

My cousin says things like that all of the time since baby Rebecca's death. He asks things like, "Will you die, Erica?" and "Will I die?" and I say,

"Yes, we will die. We will all die. But when we're really old and gray."
he says, "Rebecca didn't die when she was old. It could happen to me."

I still haven't found a way to answer that. I really wish I could do something for him.


Cool thing though. Since Rebecca's death, I haven't been afraid of death. Nice thought.

9:02 PM

 
Blogger John said...

It’s a tough sell to a young one. On the one hand they know about God and that He loves them, that there’s heaven and that He wants us to be there with Him…While on the other hand you can’t make an easy explanation about how we get there and if we are to leave this place as a child, that we go to Him.

I’ll let you know when I figure it out…but don’t hold your breath!

7:58 AM

 
Blogger Isaiah Ray said...

Wow...I've nevr really thought of asking if i would die when i was that young. I don't even thought at that aged I grasped that fact that anyone would die at all. But really with th answer you gave to Navah do you relaly think she understood it? I mean some of it I'm sure, but i doubt all of it..I mean maybe I'm just kinda slow, but I didn't get it all.

10:34 AM

 
Blogger John said...

Yai, I don't even think she understands what it means to die. She's never even seen it. Sure...birds and animals by the side of the road, but humans...no way does she get the full meaning of what it is to leave this temporal, earthly life and be with God.

Whom, by the way, is something else she has not seen. Well...I'm not so sure about that one.

12:43 PM

 
Blogger Petros said...

John, I missed seeing you at the study... no recent posts either. Oh man, are you gonna make it so I have to actually do what I should and make it to Divine Liturgy in order to see my friend John. Okay. So be it. I hope to see you at Vespers on Wednesday. I also trust that all is well with you, Toy, Navah, and Isabella. -hugs all around- Peter

4:56 AM

 
Blogger John said...

I missed you too Pete.

You should be coming to Liturgy regardless of the motivation that gets you there, although fellowship is a valid reason...with God, His Bride, His Faithful.

I'll see you Wednesday for sure.

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